nothing wrong with good deeds and sincerity.

Assalamualaikum..

hye people. Its raining and im so lazy to go to class. well, it just another moment that im so not in the mood, unsatisfied with what I feel and just another moment that I need to express it.

They said im too overly think about other people. Sometimes when I help, I will help them to do something until it will finally troubled me back. That's what they said. They think they know the real me. But now, it think they just don't.

I am that kind of person. I will always think about others before me. Cause of what.? Cause I have that kind of heart. The heart where will always  simpathy for others. Help people where they needed help. Even though sometimes it made me postponed my activities. But I dont really care for that because my heart feel happy and relieved just to see they happy. Im sincere with all the people I help. I never ask for a repay. It made me happy to help people.

But what actually made me sad when some of them judging me and critics me for that. and of course some of the plan didn't really turns out perfectly. Im sorry to the people that I've troubled without any intention to do so. So I guess right should depends more on myself. Do good deeds but always depends on yourself. Well, just to be clear. I never regret for all the things I do for people, but I feel sad for the comments that I received from others. Just remember, every things I did, were all the same. No more or less. Didn't they feel the same way too and how I treated them when they come to me and explain their problems.? How could they simply said words that hurt me just because this time I help other people.?

Well, don't forget that I also have done the same things for you too. Not just once, but everytime when you needed me. So dont think that you have every right to
critic me just because this time it wasn't you that needed help.

Jauh di mata, dekat di hati..

Assalamualaikum..

Hai semua..
Hari terakhir bercuti dari pegang buku, pegi kelas dan sebagainya. Aku dalam perjalanan menuju ke shah alam yang ter'sayang'. Namun, hati terasa berat meninggalkan tempat aku dan sepertinya terasa sesuatu yang tinggal di sini, melaka. Mungkin sebab dah terlalu lena dengan nikmat bercuti. Seronok bila buka mata diri dekat dengan orang orang yang aku sayang. Dapat makan masakan rumah dan boleh berjumpa bila-bila masa. :)

Ahhh, terdetik dalam hati. Bilalah nak habis study. Rasa macam lama. Tak apa, bak kata orang, pejam celik pejam celik sampai juga penghujungnya. Cuma kena harung la dengan sabar. Naik cuti ni mesti test berlambak, assignment tak ingat dunia muka naik jerawat lagi. Hahaha. :D

Tak apa, selagi boleh... Kita enjoy.!!! :p

P/s: untuk insan-insan yg saya sayangi di melaka, nantikan kepulangan saya lagi. InsyaAllah ada rezeki kita berjumpa lagi. Dirimu sentiasa di hati.. XOXO :')

Keep my feet on the ground

Assalamualaikum..

Hye people. It's been a while I left this blog. Rest from writing and posting new entry. Since then, I stopped expressing myself. Shut myself from sharing my thoughts, my emotions, my sadness and all other stuffs. Why.? Hmm well, just to think about it now, I start to question myself too. Why, what happened to me.? Why am I hiding myself behind a 'wall'.? What made me scared to be myself.? And I can't seems to find the answers to all my questions.

I want to be happy. I want to be myself without people that judging me for every action that I do but all that words are all things that I can only say to myself. Im not bad. Im human. I have my own right of what I feel. Im strong. I have every right to live happy. Im a girl who paint her own rainbow and my name is atiqah.

P/s: to every girl who felt alone out there. Remember, you don't need dozen of friends to make you beautiful. You don't need a boyfriend to make you feel appreciated. Certainly, you don't need make up to fake your face. You already beautiful in your own way. Keep a smile on your face, because a smile can heals a heart faster than words. Im trying to do the same thing too. Until then, cheers. :')