There was a girl, who used to buy everything she want without a care for having insufficient money. All the things she thought of buying it, whether like it or not, there was no hesitation about money. She was not so wealthy but her father's economic back then was in a best condition for her to ask or buy anything she want. As for money, she was never ran out of money. Even when she called her father in the middle of a night asked for money, she would never had a problem for withdrawal tomorrow morning.
As for her expenses, she can spend almost RM200++ for a day just for shopping. She was having her life back then. Even for expensive things, if she asked for it she would have it eventually sooner or later. Things can be unexpected sometimes, and her family was having a financial problem. Not sure where it came from, but her family had to take a big step, big changes that sometimes can't be accepted by themselves. She had to learn how to save her money. From shopaholic to normal girl. No more shopping, entertainments, and eat luxury foods.
She is going through a difficult time, where once buying things that cost around RM100 can be labelled as cheap for her, became an unaffordable price for her now. RM100 before was lasted only for a night where now, RM100 need to be save for her everyday expenses in a week. Once, she wouldn't missed any SALE in shopping mall but now, she would pass by all the boutiques in the mall even if there is a SALE sign appeared in front of the boutique. She is too scared to look at all the signs, because she knew she can't afford to buy anything. Then, all its left was her anger, sadness and questions of uncertainties. 'why is this happened?' 'why i don't have a money?' 'why it has to be me?' 'why?'. She can't help herself but cry. Of course, people would blaming her for not being grateful with what Allah have given her.
But what people don't know is, everyday before she sleep, she prayed to Him for His blessing, for her family's sustenance. She would thanked to Him for what she had today, and prayed to be even more stronger tomorrow for her friends, family and herself. When she talked about it, doesn't mean she's complaining, but she is tired to act she is fine by putting a smile on her face. Sometimes it is hard to pretend we are okay in front of everybody. It is even more harder to find someone who is willing to listen to our story without judging us. I guess my blogger is my only true listener.
p/s : i think i can be a novel's writer. stay tuned, next episode. hehe :)
